maldita

am i wearing a mask?

coz i don’t know how i really feel,

i don’t even know who i am..

is this all just pretension?

i cannot comprehend..

why am i laughing without feeling any joy inside,

why am i smiling without any meaning..

i’m always the jolly person everyone know but can they say when am i really happy..

i used to talk a lot,

i wonder why can’t anyone notice the sadness in my voice..

i have d loudest laugh,

bt no one ever realized that it’s empty.. 

i always have the cheerful outlook in life,

but don’t they know that my hope is fading..

no one has ever seen me cry,

but they don’t know that i’m living in pain..

all they know is my smiles and optimism..

no one would even think that i often times stumble and fall down,

they doesn’t see me wounded..

they say that the eyes are the window of the heart,

it can express what someone really feels,

but i think that’s not applicable in my case..

bec. if it is why can’t anyone grasp d totality of my being..

they don’t know the

tears..

pain..

suffering..

hurts..

why can’t anyone notice it..

maybei played my part very well that i made people believe what i want them to..

am i wearing a mask?

-Love is a state of mind

-Don’t say that u can’t live w/o him..inhale..exhale..u just need air to breath and u just have to breath to live..

-We have an irrational belief that we should be loved.

-So if u love someone don’t expect a reciprocation of ur feeling..just be happy that u love him..If he loves u back that is just a bonus..

-The ratio of male and female is 1:10 one male to ten female..but don’t worry in 8billion people in this world u just need one..

-DON’T GO LOOKING FOR LOVE JUST SIT STILL AND BE PRETTY..

-In a relationship give each other space to breath..

-We have an irrational belief that we must be excellent in everything..Remember that in everything u do is not a measure of your worth as a being..

-Look at yourself a wonderful being,so if someone said someting nice about u say thank you..

-Love yourself and accept what u see in the mirror everyday..

-Celebrate yourself and celebrate that u are u..

-Love life..laugh..cry..run..shout..work..study..enjoy!

-Live today as if it is ur last..

-The world is unfair but the choices are fair so make the right choice..

-Celebrate life..

I HATE LOVE

I hate love

It makes u think ur strong,

but on one blink ur wrong,

It stays inside ur hypothalamus,

Then it eats all the courage, hope and optimism,

Until u r left with nothing..

I detest love

It makes u believe in eternity,

It takes u away from reality,

It makes u believe in fairies,

Then unknowingly love will destroy it all,

Until nothing is left for u to cling to,

It wont stop until ur heart is torn into pieces..

Fuck love

It is disguised as a wonderful dream,

Full of flowers and daisies,

With rainbows and butterflies,

But u’ll wake up in a nightmare,

A monster in disguise,

A thing u thought so pretty yet dangerous..

I fucking hate love

It makes u wait for sunshine,

It makes u long for the air,

Then it will send a storm and strong winds,

It wont stop until ur drowned,

It wont stop until ur lifeless..

I hate love

It seems to be gentle,

It takes away ur shield,

It makes u put away ur defense,

It makes u vulnerable,

Then suddenly it opens ur chest and gets ur heart right through it,

It kicks u on the head,

Until u wish to just die..

I fuckin hate love coz its full of lie,

I fuckin hate love coz it makes u die,

I fuckin hate love coz it makes u weak..

I detest love

It makes u stupid and dumb,

It makes u believe in anyone,

It squeezes ur heart and then it tears it apart..

Fuck love

It makes u think of forever,

Even if it is never,

It makes u hope,

It makes u dream,

Then it will destroy ur fantasies beyond scream..